There's such a thing as writer's block...but is there such a thing as teacher's block?
There has to be some way to squash this feeling that I can't do this.
Not teaching overall, just 2nd grade.
I'll survive 4.5 more weeks of this, I know, but I want to do more than survive it. I want to teach those kids. I want to learn. I want to make the most of it. But selfishly, what I really want is to be able to believe in myself.
I have to start taking over the whole day soon. Visions of all the ways anarchy can break out run through my head regularly.
Did I mention our room is one of the ones closest to the front office?
At least if anarchy broke out, I'd hope that means help would come quickly.
I joke, but really...I ask for your prayers. This greenhorn has so, so much to come to terms with.
~"I speak the truth." [one of my 2nd graders today...he said it jokingly; I use it in all seriousness]~
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You can do this. You've been given the authority.
The first thing I do when I pull into the parking space at school is turn off the car and pray that He walk with me the whole day, helping me get out of my own way so He can do His work. I have been doing this since I began teaching because I am not naturally inclined to talk to large groups who think I know something. But God knows and He talks to everyone. :)
And when I fail, and I have failed, I cry and I learn and I get up and I try it again. And when it goes well, I cry and I learn and I get up and I try again.
I think the best teachers doubt themselves, Michelle. You have everything you need: a powerful love, an amazing laugh, joy that is infectious, and an education in education. Don't be afraid. You were made courageous. You were made to do this.
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