New poem...

Façade

By Michelle 6/1/08

These bracelets annoy me as much as he does,
Sitting across from me,
Lying with the words he does not say,
Looking at me like I have not changed
And will fall again for his game.

But those months without him were my cure
As I sat alone,
Opening my eyes to the nothingness he has to offer,
Observing how he wanted all control
And willing to give him none.

I am no longer weak enough to fall again
And pine on my knees,
Chasing after his temporary presence,
Choosing the emptiness over loneliness
And willing there to be more.

I am smart enough to take control
And run the game,
Lending my presence but not myself,
Leaning away from the illusions he leads
And the will to settle.

I deserve more.

Dedicated to someone who has no clue that this is about him, and who never will.

A new decade begins.

So 20 came in with a bit of a bang. Lots of storms. We even had some rotating clouds above my house on Saturday. Happy birthday to me, hey? I found out my high school has had some terrible flooding. This slide show depicts what's going on in that part of town.

All of the pictures of what is going on not just in my area, but the entire state, and even the entire Midwest are just awesome in a simultaneously saddening manner. I just saw footage of Lake Delton in the Dells sweeping away lake homes and essentially disappearing...Wow. Can't help but marvel at the power of God.

Despite the weather, I was glad to have a better weekend than I anticipated. I just was not excited about turning 20. I didn't really know how I felt, actually.Two of my friend basically lived at my house this weekend though, and we had a kick-ass bonfire one night, and just did a LOT of talking the entire weekend. That in addition to a lot of time with my family (both sides) was the perfect way to usher in a new decade of my life.

~"Well, who's to blame? Are we making the right choices?" ["Brave" - Idina Menzel]~