Our plans had changed around a bit tonight, leaving me with a bigger window of time by myself in Lincoln. I had gotten there early -- yes, you read that right, not just on time, but EARLY!!! -- and now had a few hours to kill. With no agenda.
*gulp* Uh oh.
Usually when I find myself out and about alone, I think of the people I've been meaning to call and still get my socializing in (unless I'm grocery shopping, but that's a story for another time). And I rush to get done as quickly as possible.
Tonight I put the phone away. I did my errands. When I was done, I walked around the mall. I got something to eat and wandered around some more. Then I headed to b&n -- my Happy Place -- and wandered through the children's section and then to the journals. I needed a new journal, anyways, and happily came across one. I sat in the cafe writing, listening to the snippets of conversations around me mingled with the sounds of the baristas at work.
I caved to the cell phone only when people called me.
This isn't so bad. In fact, I could get used to this.
It was a relief of a realization, too, because I've also recently done some thinking that landed me into the conclusion that I honestly will not be dating any time in the near future. [That's another post in and of itself, perhaps]. The point is that it's necessary to be comfortable like this. It's not good to be alone, but it's also not good to never be alone. Even Jesus spent time in solitude.
~"It is good to be solitary, for solitude is difficult; that something is difficult must be a reason the more for us to do it." [-Rainer Maria Rilke]~
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