Relationships.

It takes me a really long time to admit that I'm not happy. It takes me an even longer time when admitting that I'm really not happy affects somebody else, i.e. a relationship. That happened this week, as did the decision to take time to figure things out...for myself, by myself. I've been driving myself crazy since then...I mean, I feel like it's what I need to do, but then I wonder if it's really the best thing right now, and I start thinking that I'm really stupid for letting go because I love this guy. I'm wondering if we'll both ever be happy again...if we'll find other people...or if we're supposed to be together.

See, the question was if we'd really be able to make each other happy despite our differences on what can be seen as some key issues. I really don't think that I can make him as happy as he deserves, and I'm not sure if I can be happy with him...especially knowing that I'm not exactly the kinda girl that's best for him.

A friend and I were discussing this the other night, and we started talking about how you'll never have perfection in your significant other. He mentioned something about an 80-20 rule he'd heard about (he'll have to tell me again where it was from...) where you'll get 80% of what you are looking for in someone else, but there will be 20% that just isn't it. My question is this: Don't you have a say in what 80% you should get, the 80% you're not willing to compromise on?

I don't want to make someone compromise what they really believe. I don't want him to change. And yet...I'm not sure if I'm willing to change, either.