Exhausted Praying

That kind of exhaustion that comes with constantly being beaten over the head with how much you don't know...by the mistakes you make chasing after what those seasoned by years in the profession know now by instinct...with trying to push through it all to make it all work...

It's the kind of exhaustion I am looking forward to experiencing less frequently down the road...

Because now, this very second, I find myself recalling the frequency they told us that our goal the first year would become survival...and here I am, hoping to make it through, cringing at mistakes, praying for strength, wisdom, patience beyond measure, love, and rest.

But I pray this not just for myself, but those in their own forms of survival mode, too...because we are never alone...