Ready As I'll Ever Be

I love lists. I make them all the time. I think enjoying making lists this much should really be a diagnosed condition. It goes hand-in-hand with the Post-It addiction I'd also be diagnosed with. I actually had listed the lists I made today, but I deleted it because you already have enough evidence of my list obsession.

Allow me to make one more list before calling it a night. I call this one...

"Reasons Why I Am Ready To Graduate"

1. I got back into town on Sunday but didn't go to campus until Tuesday morning when I had to be there. My world is bigger than a college campus now, and I'm ready to live beyond that block. I used to be so impatient to get my feet back to that place, that campus, but now it's just...another significant place in my life.

2. I realized I know a lot about the walls of TLEC auditorium. There has been a lot of Ed program stuff in that room...and not all of it has been more interesting than the walls. There's only so much they can tell us. Most of the learning we have left to do will best be found being in the classrooms with the children.

3. I got to talking with one of my professors today. She looked me right in the eye and told me I'm ready for my own classroom.

4. I've been visiting as many home goods displays as possible, both in person and online. I'm envisioning my future home and how to make it feel like one.

5. I've been working on securing things for my place. I've got the basics for my bedroom, living room, and dining room. Now I'm excited to put them in place and use them.

6. I get to go home after graduation. I get to celebrate with my family. More importantly, I get to see my family. 5 months has been a really, really long time. The longest I've ever gone without seeing them, actually. (And hopefully the longest I ever will.)

7. If you see me staring off into space, I'm really just seeing my classroom and planning things for it.

8. I'm ready to spread my wings and see where life's going to take me from here. Alright, God, lead me where Ya need me.

~"What the caterpillar calls the end the rest of the world calls a butterfly." [-Lao Tzu]