Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Bittersweetness-Induced Panic

Two weeks ago marked the end of the wonderful opportunity to be the peer instructor for a group of optimistic, open-minded, curious, kind-hearted, and intelligent freshman. How could I not be excited about seeing them every week?

On our last night together, I shared these words with them about getting out and challenging themselves, recognizing how they are growing along the way, and basically just really making the most of their time here.

I'm excited for Texas, don't get me wrong, but now's the time where I'm panicking.

have i done enough here? did i challenge myself enough? did i really meet my full potential here?

will i be okay out there?

will i find a place to fall in love with like the comfortable home i found in seward? will i find a "family" in wherever i end up after this? how long until i feel "at home" again?

Who knew such an long awaited event could be so bittersweet?

Whatever the future holds, it'll be an "adventya."

~"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." [Ferris Bueller's Day Off]~


1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Don't worry. God has and will use you to do wonderful things. It is hard going to a new place, as you well know. But look at how good Seward turned out for you. Texas will be different, but it will be just as good. As someone in Honduras told me "It'll be great!" Just remember that. :-D