So I have a meeting on Tuesday with the guy who decides my fate. Okay, so he only sort of decides my fate. He helps me find a job after graduation. It's still intimidating.
My mind is racing with possibilities, and my heart is full of hope and anticipation. This is what keeps me awake for many more hours than I'd like to admit. I'll get to be doing what I love, but where?
I always thought it'd be wonderful to be at this age with endless possibilities, but now that I'm here I'm discovering how this open-ended future can be oppressing in its own way. I can't make any plans because I just don't know where I'll be. I can't bank on anything right now.
Wow, talk about a challenge. I'm forced to put all of my trust in God, and it's beautiful, but it's certainly not easy. I feel like I found the hard place and should be looking for the rock.
And just when I needed it, something truly awesome happened. Topping off a wonderful adventure to a vineyard with David, Alisha, and Jon was the most incredible sunset I've seen in ages.
Sometimes I can't help but be a little conceited when I see things like this. I feel like God put them there just for me. Sights like this are the reminder I need sometimes of just how much God loves me as an individual, not just somebody lost in the crowd.
And you know what? At times when life as I know it is going to completely change, it's nice to be reminded of the biggest constant in my life.
~"Streams of mercy never ceasing call for songs of loudest praise." ["Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing"]
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