21 years old is notorious for being that age where you're finally legal to drink, but I think that overshadows a lot of what being 21 has entailed...at least for me. For all I know, for some 21 year olds that really is the only significance. For me, it's been comprised of yes, my fair share of enjoying legality, but also a number of decisions made solely by me. I've been faced with a number of situations where I've had to put myself first and figure out what's best for me, just me. A relationship ended, a move occurred, a new job began, my first taste at apartment life came along, and responsibility has trumped wishes on a number of occasions. There have even been Friday and Saturday nights spent doing homework instead of going out. I felt so lame, but I knew that it's a part of life.
Adulthood struck again right before Easter break. I was slated to go home, something I decided two weeks beforehand during Spring Break. I originally intended to stay here and enjoy being at my home church in Seward. The closer it got to being time to go home, the more I dreaded it. I wasn't looking forward to the drive, I needed to do a lot of hw that I knew would not get done if I left, and really, I was not looking forward to a stressful Easter. I also had to spend Monday driving all day and then going to work. Not really my idea of fun, nor would it be a helpful note to end the semester on. I decided to stay here, a decision that came with many tears. I felt like I was disappointing my family somehow, and I was also missing a major holiday with them. I voluntarily put myself and responsibility before my family. I've been raised that family ALWAYS comes first, so this went against my very nature. It was a weird feeling.
The worst part, however, was realizing that this won't be the first time that I'll have to do that...and it broke my heart a little.
So these are the repercussions of being an adult...
~"Find your purpose and fling your life out to it. Find a way or make one. Try with all your might. Self-made or never made." [-Orison Swett Marden]~
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Hey! Um... so your quote today didn't sit too well with me, which is weird. Not sure why... all well.
Sorry to hear that. Think about it, and if you would like to talk about it, let me know!
I know that I like it because we all have something that we're passionate about, something we're gifted and doing and enjoy doing, and we have to remember that -- especially when we're having those "Why am I stressing myself out in college again?" days. :) All of these wonderful gifts God's given us can't go to waste when we get discouraged!
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