No Explanation Needed...But Given Anyways

I've never explained the title of my blog. It's on the extensive list of things I've been meaning to do but haven't gotten around to yet.

Kudos to The Challenge for already making me step it up.

I started this thing 3 years ago as I prepared for a semester at CUNE so I could document the whole experience. To gear myself up, I thought about all of the independence I'd be gaining as I learned to stand on my own without my family being so close by (a new and terrifying thought...most of my family lives within an hour of one another back home). I'd have to learn to fend for myself.

I find theme songs for each phase of my life. While preparing to come out here, I geared up by listening to "Wide Open Spaces" by the Dixie Chicks...the lyrics just clicked (not a fan of their voices, though).

A young girl's dreams no longer hollow

It takes the shape of a place out west

But what it holds for her she hasn't yet guessed

She needs wide open spaces

Room to make a big mistake

She needs new faces

She knows the high stakes

I didn't know what Nebraska held for me, but I knew I'd walk away changed. I'd walk away a stronger person. Little did I know that I'd stay here for 2 and a half years and would struggle with the idea of leaving. No way did I anticipate learning as many life lessons here as I have.

Sometimes we just need to go out and do something on our own. We need to make our own mistakes and messes so we can learn to fix them and grow from them. It isn't always easy -- we definitely end up stepping on some toes in the midst of finding our own paths. We just have to make ourselves forget about that, though, and find ourselves however we need to.

This blog is a collection of my messes and what I've walked away from them with. It's about the chances I'm taking and the paths I'm exploring. It's my story of how I step on some toes, but how I need to explore because there's so much out there to experience.

I have a lot of growing left to do.

~"If these are life lessons, she'll take this test." ["Wide Open Spaces" again]~