Thursday, January 5, 2012

Amazement Amid Imperfections

never feeling like I have all of this job under control -- merely different parts at different times.

dreaming of the day when there will be some semblance of knowing instead of constantly "oh, shoot. i should have done this. oh well, there's always next time."

being grateful for the pieces that are in place at the moment
always thankful for this glorious mix of beautiful children
loving, laughing, learning
making my heart break as it overflows with joy.

and the ways they make me
laugh
cringe
exhausted
energized
inspired
are the very things that can trump distress
when assessments are missing the night before report cards are due
and my scheduled timetable for writing up report cards has gone horribly awry
and i've erased a message with important information before writing it down
my dog's miserable while i'm away
my ideas are great than the time i have to make them happen
when all i want is a nap.


because it's always the little things, and every day i love my 21 little ones more and more.

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